The ship at roaring ocean

Approaching the end of clinical rotation isn't making me more confident to become a clinician. Well, yeah, maybe I do become more confident in some points but not in some other points. I realize that the finish line laid in front of my very eyes but yet I'm afraid to run and reach it! Why? Because the point of being a medical doctor is not about having the title in front of my name but it is all about the life, the care, the servant-ship, and all the (they said) patriotic-heroic things that doctors do. In the other hand, with all these modernization, we are facing the new era of medicine that we called it medicine-business where everything is all about money just like economic science said "to get more profit with less money spent" and also one more thing "successful defined by how rich you are".

With all those points of view that our communities have, people start questioning me when I haven't finish my pre-clinical stage. The questions are always similar about what speciality I would take, where would I do my practice once I've finished my study, etc. They also have one thing similar, the message, message to take a speciality that would get more money with less effort and stress. Well, is there anyone who wants to take a path that is small, hard to go through, painful, and else? Every human wants the easiest yet produce much more money. That's why many people used this trick to get money from others, the pick-pockets,thieves,etc. 

For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs (1 Timothy 6:10)

But is it really how things should be? I don't think so.

I believe there are more things than becoming a medical doctor with a lot of money. I believe there are more things God's wants me to do despite of being rich. I believe that my top priority is serving God through my profession and richness is just a bonus. For now, I still have no idea what should I do over my finish line in this chapter of my life but I should learn to walk by faith and giving all my worries in His loving hands.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Pernah dipublikasikan dengan judul yang sama di Notes Facebook pada 26 Oktober 2013 oleh Amelia Juliana Adam